Lebron James is super man

Apparently this past evening Mr. James slam dunked a ball leaping from the free throw line to the hoop. But last I checked only one man on earth could jump like that and it was Clark Kent a.k.a. Super Man.

I think tomorrow after I stretch and play hop scotch I might call up Mr. Lebron James and Challenge him to a jump off

Can you say eat your wheaties boys and gurls

Alicia Keys and the Easter Bunny hang out. Why cant she and I. I am going to rota tiller his bunny home one day. I will show that bastard

Veterans day

Fuck you veterans day. What do I get for being a vet? Nothing, I get the satisfaction of knowing I was employed by Bush's corrupt war machine.. I get drunk thats what I get you cock sucker uncle sam. Thats all that I get. 9/11 can suck my cock. The genocide in other counties what about those? What about the daily car bombings around the world? What about the innocent people in third world countries that are raped and murdered every day by the thousands that we dont hear about because we are too busy talking about Britney Spears bastard children and Branjolenias or whatever you call her adopted kids. What about the sweat shops in Asia? What about the Hatians trying to leave the the thousands every day that we send right back? What about the Cubans we ship back that get killed for being considered traitors for trying to leave that country? Wait thats right Michale Moore says its great because they have "awesome health care". Fuck you, you fat fuck eat another big mac ass hole.

Hey anyone hear about Madonnas fake British accent or her divorce? Yep we all did. But we didnt hear about the village in Zimbabwe where, every woman was raped and murdered.

Fuck it and fuck you. I am drunk and pissed.

love is bullshit, i am drunk and packing. i get to live with matthew blodgett and his bitchy ass princess cat waylon. yea i called him a princess fuck you matt do something about it. i will eat him alive

It is Thursday May 22, On Saturday May 24th I will be back home with the love of my life and I am so excited.

I have one more night to spend on this wretched ship and I am off. We pull into San Diego tomorrow morning. I pack my shit and get the hell off of here. My flight leaves 630am Saturday and by 430pm I will be exactly where I always want to be in my loves arms. She will be in mine. We will be back together again and never have to go through something like this again.

I cant wait.

"I said maybe your gonna be the one that saves me. And after all your my wonderwall"

Such a really good song and Ryan Adams cover of it is amazing. I was listening to it earlier and I began to think about a day Suzanna and I were in my car and I played it for her. I lipped it to myself and imagined my belching out the words too her but I was too shy to do it. We held hands and just admired each other throughout the song. It was a nice feeling. I was just thinking about that and wanted to get it off my chest. I cant wait until saturday. As of 430pm tomorrow we will have 96hours until I get home. I cant fucking wait.

Days like today kill me. I know Suzanna is having a rough day today and I just want to be there to hug her, to kiss her and tell her everything is going to be alright. I want to do that so bad. I cant wait until I get home, I cant wait until I am with her again.

I like the way John Lengend writes. He has passion.

"ive wanted to write a song for a while now and now i have someone to sing about" i think thats how it goes. but that just works and it makes sense he knows what hes talking about.

Suzanna turned me onto him and its pretty damn good.

Speaking of I get home in 6 freaking days!!!!!!!!! I cant wait, i miss the smell of our home, our bed, our everything. I miss her smell, her touch, her kiss her everything. I am so in love with who and what I have in my life. Suzanna puts my head in the clouds. Its the most amazing feeling in the entire world

8 MORE NIGHTS!!!!!!! NO MORE WAKING UP ALONE NO MORE GOING TO SLEEP ALONE NEVER AGAIN!!!!

So here we are. I am in Mazatlan Mexico. This has been quite the expeirence. Yesterday I was searhced my Mexican police at gun point based on the way I look whic was pretty scary, having an assault rifle pointed at your back and pistols pointed at you and not really knowing much spanish while your being pushed against a wall in another country by police can really almost make you crap yourself. But that is enough of that talk.

Last night Suzanna and I spent a long time on the phone just talking, talking about anything. Things we wanted to do, things we have done, people. It was really really nice to just be able to talk and talk and talk to her. It felt so good. I love her so much. After my whole Policia thing here I decided to stay on the ship all day because I didnt want to have an encounter like that again and I knew she would worry. It just wasnt worth the risk.

Anyway in a week and a half I get home. That is the most exciting moment that I am looking forward too. I havent been so excited about something like going home in, well I cant even remember how long. I am excited to be back in the arms and at the side of one person and one person only. She makes me feel so good. Just the sound of her voice creates this euphoric feeling. It is amazing how just the thought of being with someone can take your breath away, that they make you feel that good and you know you love them and they love you back is the best feeling and it really does strip me of my breath when I think about it.

Suzanna turned me onto John Legend, what a great song writer. So full of soul and energy. It is great music to listen to when you want to relax, think, fall asleep or just listen to music. I am hooked, she has me hooked. I am so hoooked on her.

We leave Mexico tomorrow and I cant wait. Because once we leave the next stop is home for me and that is the only stop that matters to me. I dream all day every day of the moment when Suzanna and I first lock eyes in the airport. When we approach each other, that kiss. The thought of that kiss sends chills down my spine. I imagine the drive home, being back in our home together, waking up together, spending the rest of time togehter. She is my everything. I have never had the feelings like I do for her. I look so forward to the rest of our lives. It has never been so easy to picture my future with someone like the way it is with her. She is my future.

So today is another day down. One less to go. Every day I close in on the day I get to be home, the day I get to be back with Suzanna.

I got to talk to her today. She went out to see Max a patient she had at Sunny View who really touched her, his family and him have something very special. A very special bond of love. From everything she told me he is doing wonderful which is great to hear. She said he is going home soon. So we talked about heading out to his home out near Syracuse when he gets out to spend a weekend with his family and him. It was great to talk to Suzanna and hear what a wonderful mood she was in from the visit. So I really look forward to getting to know Max and his family with her because it means so much to her and I want to be a part of everything that is important to Suzanna.

We are currently in Mexico for a few days. We leave Thursday afternoon and its the home strecth from when we leave it is just 8 days until I get home. That has me so excited. I cant wait to be home but more than anything I cant wait to be back with Suzanna. I have never loved and missed anyone the way I do here. It is so hard to describe how I feel about her, no words can say enough. I just count my blessings that I have her in my life.

So I gave myself the option of not having a day off while here just so I can pass the time. I stayed on board today and worked. They tell me to take a day off so tomorrow I am going to get up early, go for a stroll and then come back and work, then on Wednesday I am back on board all day and night on duty and we leave Thursday. So by my calculation that is a lot of working and should pass the time. Then it is back out to sea one last time. One last time for the rest of my life as I never want to go through this again. It is almost over.

Everyday I look to the sky and am thankful that Suzanna is in my life. Everyday I am so happy that I have her. I love her so much and I just cant wait to get home. This has been a true test a very hard test, but through it all I know how much I love her.